If you’ve listened to my podcast or read anything I write you know that I go to some dark places, sometimes to defuse them with laughter, if possible, sometimes just to scream back “FUCK YOU” into the darkness. In its form, as a Christian, sometimes you might wince, but note that this is business between myself and Jesus.
Here’s the thing, I’ve gone to some even darker places in recent years. I don’t think it’s “THE END OF THE WORLD”, but I do find myself wishing for the destruction of my perceived or constructed enemies. I find myself shaking my fist at God, instead of prayer. I am not currently an example of a disciple of Christ and I need to make that point in a solid and blunt way.
If you find that I’ve become too dark or weir, there is a simple answer: don’t listen. I won’t take it personally and I get it … no matter how “right” we might feel right NOW, it doesn’t really matter.
“Christians know more about the Holocaust than they know about Christ.” – Dr. Freckles
If you follow this line of reasoning, it means that people who have no records of birth or taxes or anything are garbage: whether they lived in Rwanda or Nazi Germany.
not sure I should have talked about my money woes in the previous podcast, it seems self serving, probably was. we all got money problems now.
I’m dead on with respect to the “podcast” or any of the other stupid shit I do: late in the day, 2019 pursuits … I’m not saying you guys don’t get stuff out of it, I just think it’s really low on the priority list right now.
It seems like since July of 2024 the PSYOP level has been turned up to 11, maybe even worse than 2020. Hard to say what this means if it’s true.
I’m glad that I’ve come to my senses with respect to the Holocaust, choosing AGNOSTIC … but it does seem like another limited hangout, another hustle, like the Ukraine War, Covid and Papa Blump: it hides something else.
I don’t hate Jews, I don’t know many Jews. I am not an Anti-Semite, but then isn’t that what EVERY HITLER says? I think Zionism is a cult of suffering, and the Holocaust, whatever the truth is, is used to justify further suffering, which is evil no matter how horrific past suffering was.
I was gonna start a new fictional series … don’t know … don’t want to get suckered into the Jew Hate limited hangout.
The madness level is obscene, so many people are on a hair trigger now, and if Papa Blump wanted a “Witch Panic”, he could have it, and have neighbors burning neighbors.
I remember telling you, a few months ago, that I wouldn’t track Trump “miracles” and “cant’ dos” … and I’m glad I’m not, because there are too many and they are just so dumb my listeners probably see through them.
The place where I live has that “lifeboat” feeling to it, a lot like when I shared a studio in college, a lot like Rolls-Royce, PLC, Indianapolis, October 2001, a lot like Utah, July 2023, a lot of places feel like great places until you realize how precarious your situation is …
It feels like the Lord is drifting away from me or rather I am drifting away from God. I haven’t been able to pray, not much, not enough. My Bible study is nonexistent. I am troubled by the thought that my faith is another manufactured thing, not connected to reality in any form. And these thoughts curse my soul.