Author: Daniel Sullivan

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TAKE A DEEP BREATH

Take a deep breath
with a little grunt
squat down to punt
the heart shunt
to the street

Take a deep breath
breathe in and out
don't pout
don't be a lout
make sure you shout
your favorite line
you will shine
valentine
death

Take another breath
and the rest
will shrink
like violet stink
your halitosis shines
they don't mind
they won't say
it's all okay
as long as
you are breathing

Open your mouth
suck that air in
in the thin night
bearing fright
carrying that sight
seeing those ghosts
your heart pounds
to every sound
make sure
you hit the ground
when the klaxon sings
and the black clad spring
with fire eye fury
don't be in a hurry
take a fucking breath

BLOW OUT WITH VIGOR!

EXHALE YOUR PAIN!

REGAIN YOUR CENTER!

But as you breathe
be relieved
that every pant
not small or scant
brings a new chance
a trip to France
a seance journey
to a ghost
torrid rants
and the specter speaks:

"At least you can breathe."
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FUCK YOU … still here …

I make $1774.00/month …

After I pay rent and basic expenses, I have $600 left: with the $600 I need to buy food, clothing, medicine now (Lisinopril) – according the most recent “doctor” my life depends on the blood pressure medication, so there’s that.

I have UW MEDICINE, for a BASIC FUCKING VISIT charging me $262 … don’t have it.

I have the local hospital charging me $300 (approximately) … don’t have it.

I don’t have the $66/month payment for UW MEDICINE.

I don’t have the $25/month or greater for the local hospital.

You can say: get a better job – FINE, FUCK YOU, I’M 56 YEARS OLD AND TRUMP JUST TORPEDOED WHAT LITTLE HOPE WAS LEFT IN THIS WRETCHED ZIO-NEO-STALINIST FUCKING HELLHOLE.

Within 2 months, the prices of everything will likely double: that may seem like an extreme prediction but if the DOLLAR IS TOAST, then Americans will start to pay REAL PRICES for everything and many will start to notice they’re being ripped off. Probably why TPTB will set fire to the whole mess first. Reality is, that $600 will stretch only so far if the price of healthy fresh food goes from $500 a month for myself alone to $1,000 a month. And, BTW, by that time the local food bank will be swamped.

Am I an honorably discharged veteran? – sure, ask me if that makes a fucking difference.

Am I part of the privileged “white” class? – not if you’re a ginger-celt like me, iykyk.

If I had life insurance I’d be worth more dead than alive.

If you think I’m feeling sorry for myself, I’m not.

If you think I’m a drunk, maybe? – TELL ME WHY I SHOULD STOP DRINKING???? Quality of life? Golden years arguments? For my kids (I don’t have any kids) … GIVE ME ONE SOLID REASON WHY HANGING OUT ON THIS ROCK TO BE GASLIT, MOCKED, GRIFTED, AND STALKED?

Please, one real non-FED mother fucker: why the fuck should I hang around?

“Dan, you’ll save MONEY if you start drinking”, good news, for financial reasons I am drinking a LOT LESS and likely ZERO soon. GREAT NEWS … ask me how I’ll do it?

I’ve had “friends” over the years say “why don’t you just kill yourself then?” – and people wonder WHY I’m a fucking hermit?

So I’m typing this to let you know: student loan companies, credit card companies, the dudes that repo’d my car in 2018, and the medical-industrial complex … I get it, you all prefer that I be dead, gone. I’m worthless, I don’t want to be a SOFTO-SLAVE at Redmond, even if I could still get a contract there, and that makes me the asshole, right?

But fuck you …

I’m not ready to go yet.

I’m still taking the blood pressure meds.

I still enjoy too many things about this life to want to go.

I still have a slim hope that the human race will wise up: either now, or after DAY ZERO.

FUCK YOU, still here.